i personally dont believe in “signs” 100% coz sometimes it’s just coincidences.

so you love this guy and you feel that this guy doesnt love you back…that you’re drifting apart? Jusging by what I read, your relationship with this guy is fading away…YOURE FADING AWAY. I mean, you’re relationship with this guy has caused you to lose a lot of things…bad grades, losing touch with friends and families, you are going crazy with this guy, is that even right?  is this even a healthy relationship? well we all have our different views on what a healthy relationship is…but in my opinion…a relationship should benefit the two parties. You guys should be bringing each other up…one shouldnt be the cause of the other’s downfall. You have sacrificed so much…lost so much…hurt so much. I think it’s time to think if this guy is really worth everything you give him. You said you “threw away everything to be with him for 8 whole months”…this guy shouldnt even let that happen. he shouldnt make you give up something…or ruin something just so you could be with him. He should be protecting you…should be the one making sure youre happy. Most importantly he should also make sure your relationship with your family is okay.

Im not saying to break up with this guy… I have no right at all to tell you or decide for you. What I want you to do is to think and reflect about your relationship with this guy. If there are more sad moments than happy ones… if you cry more than you laugh…well…if you always cry before you sleep…then it’s time to think if it’s still worth it to continue on. You also have to take care of yourself you know.

Just leave me a message if you need someone to talk to….if there’s updates or anything. Ill be here for you. Coz I know how it feels. Ive been there. I wanted our relationship to work…even if i know he was cheating on me…id just pretend i didnt know. I even fought with my parents…rebelled…i did all the stupid things just to be with this guy. I cried every night..stayed until 3am talking to my bestfriend. That was the ugliest moment of my life. But all is done…that was the past and im glad im over him. im glad i got out of that bad relationship coz I know I’ll go crazy if it lingers a little more.

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ugh..judgemental people sucks. it’s the 21st century…i cant believe personal preference still matters. if your friends dont accept you..then theyre not your real friends. if your relationship with them is deep, then you got nothing to worry about. if you do tell them your bisexual, they’ll be a little shocked at first…maybe a little awkward. but if theyre real friends, you’ll get over that awkwardness.

You “think” your bisexual. dont jump into conclusions right away. you might just be attracted physically…like..you find them pretty. ..i really dont think youre immediately bi when you feel that way. I just asked my bi friend. (hahaha i just realized that Im friends with lots of bi/gay people…idk„i love them…they rock!) my friend told me that she knows she’s bi when she started feeling attracted to girls..not in a physical level…but in something more intimate….like she wants to kiss them or more. she said she found out she’s bi when she met this girl…and couldnt stop thinking about her. it creeped her out but at the same time she felt really in loved with her. well idk how that feels. theyre together now.

I accepted her…even if I didnt know she was bi at first. heck it didnt really bother me as long as she acts the same and as long as she doesnt get attracted to me…all is fine.

you’re right, dont change yourself and be yourself. You’ll only get bullied if you let other people bully you. Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent. 

so…try to figure out if you’re really bi or not. and if you really are…well you dont have to tell the whole world right away…theres a right time for everything. 

sorry for replying so late.

honestly, I really dont know a good advice to give you. But about the letter, I think you should give it to her. 

Like you said, all of your feelings are written down in this letter. It’s better that she knows all of your thoughts. This is one way that the person could understand you. During your relationship, she might have had taken for granted your feelings…taken for granted a lot of things…because you werent able to fully expressed yourself. I think it’s important to stay real in a relationship…if youre mad..be mad… if you’re upset…be upset…but dont hide it all in…express it and talk about it with your other half. when I say talk…i dont mean shout or get mad.. “talk” is to resolve anything that may have caused the negative feelings. Communication is really important. 

This girl cheated on you numerous times and yet your still willing to welcome her back in your arms. Just note that you should know your limits too. Im not sayin g that this girl isnt worth the chances that you gave her (who am I to know?)…just remember that you should also give importance to yourself.you have to take care of yourself too. You know what im worried about? that your giving so much effort, bringing your all to the table and getting so much pain and burden in return. I hope this isnt true.

about you not telling your parents. well they are your parents who took care of you and raised you. theyve been there for you every step in your life…the people that have known you the longest. chances are, they already have a clue about your preference and theyre just waiting for you to tell them yourself. My cousin, who’s also a bestfriend, is gay. everybody in the family knows that he’s gay…even the neighbors know. it’s the way he moves and acts…you can sense it. he always says that he’s straight…that he is not gay. he acts so tough when uncle (his father) is in the room. I asked uncle one time if he knows…and he said he does and he told me (in filipino) “wala naman tayong magagawa dyan eh..ganyan na yan..anak ko pa din sya.” —-translation in english “i cant do anything about it…he’s like that…but he’s still my son.” Up until now he hasnt confessed yet…I told him he should but he said he’s afraid. I even told him that the family will accept him no matter what. im just hoping he’ll listen.

anyways… the letter…give it to her. you dont have that much to lose when you give that letter right. you have to express yourself.same with your parents…you also have to express what you feel…express the real you. but do it in a subtle way…heart problems remember? 

sorry im not able to help that much. just know that im here if you just want to open up:)) so come by anytime and just leave me a message.

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I think it would be a great idea to tell your gf how you feel. tell her that you’re uncomfortable of what she’s doing. Maybe she doesnt know that this is making you feel upset. 

Im still thinking of reasons why she’s doing this. Well, maybe she just really miss them as a friend. Maybe she’s doing this on purpose to get your attention. or she’s flirting with them(hopefully not this last one).

whatever reason, it’s best if she knows your views on the whole situation. this is going to avoid misunderstandings and it’s going to help you guys open up with each other.

Mkay..just once.

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psh.. i know I didnt help much:) just stop by my blog if something comes up. I may be a bad when it comes to giving out advice…but I am a good listener. feel free to rant. sometimes people just need an outlet to their emotions..it’s really hard keeping it all in you know. sometimes you just want to express everything you feel..anger happiness sorrow…sometimes you dont want to be known and stay anonymous. my blog is here for you.

highschool is different from middle school so you’ll never know right?

dont change yourself because other people tell you to do so. If you love yourself and proud of who you are as a person…who cares about those judgmental people! I guess they’re also insecure of themselves because instead of focusing their energy with other important stuff … they focus on you. They’re not contented of what they have in their life and for them to feel better about themselves, they use ways like putting other people down so they could raise their self esteems ups. you know the best way to “counter” them is to just ignore them completely. Act like you dont care…act like you’re not affected…heck…dont get affected at all by those immature kids! (if ever you encounter them). when I was in highschool…well here in california (I moved here during my highschool…originally from the philippines)…I got laughed at…(somewhat bullied)…I was a complete noob…fresh on the block. it was a completely new scenario, new culture, new people! i didnt have friends and I remember wishing everyday that all of what was happening that time was a dream. I remember when I was in 10th grade.. I was sitting beside this guy…he’s those kinds of guys that have “swag”…kind of the “class clown” too. He was nice to me, I think. Sometimes he would use certain “LA” terms…”slangs”…i wasnt well informed on the urbandictionary so whenever I was thrown certain words..i’ll just nod my head…or smile. he’d laugh coz he knows i dont know what he means…and I didnt care. let him laugh and swallow air…he’ll be farting all the way home. hahaha! I prioritize things that are more important…I didnt have time to entertain “immaturity.” 

As time pass I made friends too and I got used to everything in LA. Loving life here and im still not caring about certain stuff.

btw! if there’s clubs (odd clubs) in school that you like to join…join them! coz surely you’ll meet people that share the same interests as you. You can deal with all the highschool drama better if you got friends that back you up. A lion can eat up a hyena.. but when they come in a big group… hahaha the lion cant stand a chance.

highschool is just 4 years. and then there’s college…which is a different story. lesser drama and stress socially…more drama and stress academically. 

btw. I dress differently too. I got my own style. my own signature in fashion. its what makes me me…unique.