I moved out of my aunt’s place in November 2010 and moved to the Philippines with my mom. I noticed the next door neighbor right away and asked my mom about him, since everyone seems to know everyone around here. My mom told me that he was my age, I acted casual about it but I really wanted to get to know him.
It took five months before we began talking to one another, I told myself not to fall for him at all because I’ll be moving back to the United States in September 2011. I have basically screwed myself over because I decided not to take my own advice.
It started out with us texting, all day and night. Then he began calling me and surprisingly we didn’t run out of things to talk about. I hate talking on the phone in general but I was pretty comfortable talking with him. After that, we began hanging out in the evenings because he had work during the day. My mom would let him come over around nine and stay until around two or three, she was comfortable with him because she knows his family. (Like I said, everyone knows everyone around here.) Those nights that he’d come over, we’d talk and play with my dog. Sometimes it’d be dead silent and we’d just be sitting next to each other and I didn’t mind… I kind of liked it too and looked forward to it every evening.
Well today I took him to my grandma’s house. My mom had asked him to do something there and he asked me to come with him so I did.
It took him a couple hours to finish what he was supposed to be doing, mostly because we were joking and laughing at each other. When he did finish, out of nowhere he kissed me. We were alone in a bedroom and it was just a simple kiss on the lips. I probably looked stupid just standing there because it was seriously out of nowhere.
In the five months we have been talking and hanging out, he had never done anything like that. We had never kissed or even hugged so I wasn’t prepared on how to react. We walked out of the bedroom and he told my mom he was finished fixing what she had asked him to fix. I know I had a smile on my face and I was trying to hide it so it probably looked more like a smirk.
The thing is, now I’m more than screwed. Why did he have to go and do that?… especially when I’m leaving in exactly 3 weeks. It kind of upsets me even though it’s what I wanted ten months ago.
He doesn’t know it and won’t know it but I’ll cry because I have to leave. I don’t want this to end but I know it will because I am never good at long distance relationships… and it’s not because I become unfaithful or anything like that but because I’ll be missing him so much that I won’t be able to focus on work and life.
So. I know you might have quite a lot in your inbox but I just want to share my story with you. I hope you enjoy while reading. Oh and sorry if there are any mistakes, I’m from Germany :D Let’s jump in.
So I guess it started when I was in 8th grade.. There was this guy you know and I was really interested in him. He was not like the others. He was pretty quiet and kind of mysterious. One day our seatings get mixed up and I ended up sitting next to him and.. it was fun even though he was pretty shy.
Then, I don’t even remember how it came to this but he bet that I wouldn’t find out who he liked. I accepted and I kind of already know because I’m pretty good when it comes to thing like that, it’s almost kind of scary. So in the afternoon we chatted and I told him my thoughts. He was wondering but yeah we ended up chatting for like three hours. Well, the girl that he liked was my best friend.. and it hurted as hell. But I wanted him to be happy so I gave him advice and all that kinda stuff even though I was nearly breaking. From then on we chatted almost like all day, every day and it was pretty cool and he makes me like him even more. My best friend finally “dated” him and they talked about everything and she told him that she really does like him but just as a friend.. As time passes by he and I became really close and trustful. He became my best friend. He was just always so nice to me.
Then one day, I told him how I feel for him.. and he told me that he’s sorry and that he’s still not over my best friend.. but that he wants to be friends with me. It was terrible. But I kept being his best friend. that time was.. like.. one to two years.
Finally I decided to get rid of the pain and the heartache.. of him. I started to ignore him and .. it worked. I almost started to hate him a bit, well, at least I thought I do. But yeah. Time passes by and I started to miss him and to hate myself for what I’ve done. Oh I forgot to tell you that he was in a relationship with another really good friend of mine.
At the beginning of summer vacation after 9th grade, they broke up. But both were not really upset about it, because it wasn’t like a real relationship it was like best friends with extras. Whatever. So in our dancing-school was public viewing of a soccergame. I sat next to him and I just “docked” my head against his shoulder and he looked at me and said “Doesn’t your head belongs on my shoulder?” and I said “Yeah, but you’re too tall! :D” (I’m pretty short and he’s really really tall, what I love) So he made himself smaller so I could lie my head onto his shoulder and I fell asleep. That was the day we started to get.. physically close. Everyone just thought we were a couple because we almost acted like one.. but never were and we never kissed though.
So a lot of cute time passes and one day when I was about to got to France because of an exchange, he baked me some cake and just stood in front of my house just to say goodbye, which was like the most cute thing ever.
Then.. he started to get kind of sad. I knew it was because of a girl, but this time he didn’t want to tell me who that girl was. Then he gets awkward around me until he ignored me completely. It made me really sad and mad at one time but if I asked him what was wrong he wouldn’t answer or reply with a “It just need some space, please. I’m so sorry”. It hurted me to know that something was wrong with him and than one of my best friends told me that he was in love with me for almost a year now.. I didn’t know what to do because. I wasn’t sure if I was in love with him and I couldn’t imagine myself in a realtionship with him. I just waited. And he came back.. and we were even closer, as always. So yeah.. this is where the story ends. I’m not clear about my feelings yet neither do I know about his feelings for me.. we’ll see. I just know that I miss him whenever he’s not there and that I enjoy everytime I talk to him. Now we’re both in 11th grade, the 4th year of our “story”.
Sorry that it was such a long text but it feels good to write it down. Thank you so much if you’ve read that. In love, Janin.
I won’t say it was all good, because I had it hard.
I won’t say it was all hard, because I had it good.
You see, I was blessed, and am still blessed with an amazingly dysfunctional, drug fucked, psychotic, aggressive, hilarious, kindhearted, caring, generous family who are the reason I am who I am today. And some friends that are on the same boat as my family.
I spent most of my years, sitting at either my dad’s workplace alone waiting for him to finish, or my mums. I had to put up with their constant fighting, our constant struggle for money, the hunger, the stress, the car breaking down, and the drugs, the electricity being cut off, the fights in our household between outsiders and my parents, and constantly getting yelled and screamed at by my parents. But I had a brother to help me through as I went through all this.
I also had to deal with bullying, something I dealt with alone. My family, had too much on their plates to worry about my bullying problems, so I kept them to myself. People spat on me, kids picked on how my clothes weren’t brand new, or how they had holes in them. I got books thrown in the bin, and my lunches too. I got pushed over a lot, tripped up, blamed for things I didn’t do and told by teachers I wasn’t ever going anywhere in life.
I grew up in an unkind world, because right now the things I’m telling you, don’t even begin to match up to the things that I’m not.
But through this, I had a family that I loved, we weren’t always the nicest to each other, we didn’t always like each others company however, we were still family.
As I grew up, I had no confidence, friends who stabbed me in the back every chance, teachers who couldn’t care less about me, two broke, drug fucked up, stressed parents and a brother whose popularity made him ‘too cool’ for his little sister.
It was hard.
I then got diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder, a mental illness that runs strongly in my family. This didn’t help.
Death had already taken at least seven people I loved, and travelling had taken away the only true friend I believed I ever had.
Then 2010 happened, my closest friend, like a brother. A friend of fifteen years left me, he got a girlfriend who didn’t like me, he’d known her for mere weeks, and he decided she was more important. He was my other half, my soul-mate without the love. When he walked out of my life, I was lost. In the same week another friend of mine, a close friend. He decided he wanted nothing more to do with me, also because of a girl. Also, in that week my brother turned to drugs, crack, pills, weed. Anything he could get his hands on, he lost himself to the thrill, the escape. He wasn’t around. I also met the boy who I thought I was in love with, who ended up screwing with my head until I ended up in a mental ward, I hate what he turned me into whilst I was with him. He is a headfuck, to this day. My parents moved away, my dad a few years before 2010 for work, my mum for work in 2010, my brother went with her. I was left, here. In my town, by myself. I lost concentration at school, and slowly just stopped going. I had no home to go to, it hadn’t been home since they left. My brother and mother came back, after half a year. But I wasn’t welcome there anymore, my brother moved into my grandparents and my mother and I just can’t live together under the same roof. It gets violent, and I get kicked out. I got sick of always getting kicked out, so I moved out. And I haven’t been back since, sure I visit. But no more than a few days at a time.
On my sixteenth birthday in 2011, a week before I had moved back home, due to the flooding of our house during the floods we were at my grandparents. I had just started attending school again, after basically a year of not going. A new school, senior college. My mum, on my birthday threw me out of the car and started laying into to me, in front of my mind-fucking boyfriend at the time. I lost all respect for her that day, but I still love her, she’s a fighter like myself, like everyone in my family. But what she did hurt, what she said, and how she acted still hurts. It’ll take time.
I got kicked out of school for not attending enough.
I had no school, most of my friends hated me because I dogged them for a boy I was in love with, but he was in love with someone else, and cheating on me often. I had no home, and no family around. The main barriers in my life were gone, but I had to pick it all up and start over.
Just as the end of 2011 was looking good-a kind family, my bestfriends family had taken me in I’d lived with them for months they were great to me-my grandmother got diagnosed with cancer, and my pop dementia. My gran is dying, my pop is losing his mind. Right now, I live with my grandparents. My brother too, we look after them. Nanna has to start chemo soon, but it’s probably going to kill her. And pop doesn’t even know who I am half the time.
But, none of this matters. I’m strong, I’ll pull through. I have a fair few good friends now, and I’m getting lots of time with family, me and mum are patching things up and I see dad a bit more now, when he comes home to visit. I’m single and completely over the fuckhead that wrecked me mere months ago. And although for a while I’m stuck here in a rut, this year will be my year. Even if I lose both my grandmother and grandfather. I know it’ll be okay, because it always is.
I have fun memories, and I am sad, confused, angry and happy all in one.
You see, it took me a long time to be this optimistic, it was something I had to work on, hard. I get sad and angry a lot, sometimes I even break down. We all have our highs and lows, but this is my life and I’m still going places, I’m only sixteen. They say; ‘every story has a happy ending, and if it’s not happy, its not the end.’ I agree completely.
My life has been hard, it has been easy and everything in between, but I’m still here and I have the scars to prove it. If you think that life is too hard, if everything is getting you down, if you’ve never have a break. Believe in yourself, believe in your capabilities and believe that not all bad things last forever, open the door to good opportunities and happiness, don’t fear them. Let yourself take that step forward, because they’re right when they say; ‘We only live once.’
I want to share a story because this is very dear to me and I’m willing to share.
Well, it started last year when I went to my Japanese class at lunch in August for a club meeting. A good amount of freshmen had joined and the old members stuck around. A boy, who seemed kink of shy, I was drawn to him for some reason, but I tried to push it aside since I didn’t even speak to him, ever. A month passes on, and we had a project involving making a poster, which was displayed on the wall. (Little did I know that poster had some magical quality about it.) At another meeting, the bell was about to ring and I was about to grab my backpack when I was asked by the boy (who I’ll call J now) asked me about who drew a poster. I looked and saw him looking at mine, replying in a small voice, “I did.” He just hugged me and said, “That’s amazing. I love you.” I stood there, surprised and stuttered a thank you, then went on my merry way.
Now, I had never been one for football, but I went to a game with J and his friend, H. We sat together and hung out with our other friends. It was really cold, but I couldn’t care less. J sat next to me. Some way away was the bright light that shone over the bleachers. My hands started getting really cold and I shivered a bit. I looked over at him and he could tell I was cold, so he covered my hands with both of his, then asked, “D-do you want a glove?” I said sure. At that moment, the light just shone just right and he seemed just perfect at that moment. With the glove on my hand, I wanted to hold his hand, but I held myself back. Our school won, but I left with no one beside me.
January rolls around and it’s after Winter Break. I ran into him at lunch and decide to hang out with him. (Before, I would just be in the library with a friend or two and just to homework.) Somehow while we’re texting, he said he found me interesting, but then goes to say he finds several other girls “interesting” also. My heart just sinks down, seeing A’s name, a girl who I thought J might like.
February, a month I disliked very much came next. I tried denying it for so long, but then I finally accepted it… I had feelings for J and they won’t go away. So, I decided to tell him. “I’ll do it over a text. A note will kill me from the suspense and in person… I might cry.” The texting went on and I finally told him. I laid there waiting, but he told me he liked me too and asked me out. He confessed that he wanted to ask me out, but wasn’t sure I liked him since I tired to distance myself and tease him sometimes. (I only did that so I had some reason to talk to J.)
The next week our club went on a trip to San Francisco and we shared an umbrella while it was pouring and our shoes were soaked.
Sometimes, taking the chance is worth it. It might hurt and you’ll fall, but you can always climb right back up and find someone who will catch you. Meeting someone is both a mixture of fate and chance.
OMGGGG!! semms like the moments you mentioned came out from a movie. so romantic!!!!!!! thanks for the inspiring story<3
This is going to sound strange, and stupid.
But I forget how to make friends. I’m hoping to make more online friends, I need space from real life at the moment.
I’m a deviant artist, but I don’t want to come off strange or tooforward or creeperish, and all of that stuff.
Online friends…it’s hard to find REAL online friends but you can always start from tumblr. I met some awesome people here. People that i follow or who follows me:)
Ive been having casual convos with some of my dear followers:) it’s pretty fun actually. Im even planning to meet some of them…if i have the chance.
I really need your help. My best friend Hayley has been my best friend since the fourth grade, and since then we’ve done everything together. Weve told eachother our secrets, if we’re mad at eachother, gossiped together, and told eachother everything. This year, a new girl named Jane joined our group of friendship, we turned into the three best friends. Me and Jane have hung out with eachother without Hayley a few times, but Jane is always hanging out with Hayley now and never puts in the effort to hang out with me, like its always her and Jane now. This summer was when me and Hayley had a bump in our friendship. Hayley started to text me with the biggest attitude and id ask her whats wrong and she’d either say “nothing was wrong nothing WAS wrong..” or “why its not like youd care youd tell everyone anyways.”. And once she texted me saying “I think Jane is the only person who wants to be my friend.” but she has no idea how much effort i put into her so that she wont leave me. I always text her first because i guess she doesnt want to talk to me. And once when i was hanging out with Jane, like it was just me and her, she tod me that Hayley had told her “I can make her [me] angry and she wont do anything about it.” and you have no idea how much i wanted to die inside. shes called me an effing idiot, told me to calm down three times over text when trying to help her, and she always uses me. And it made me realize that what she told Jane is sort of true, she can be mean to me and i really wont do anything. But so many times ive wanted to yell at her and make her feel what shes putting me through but i cant because shes my best friend and all of my other friends have best riends already so im just stranded by myself most of the time because Hayley makes no effort to hang out with me. And i know you probably wont respond to this but i just really need happiness and advice right now. I didnt know how to put this anonymously but i really dont want my url to show up so if theres a way you can undo that i would appreciate it so much, but if you cant, i understand.
Dear d-reaming, i think your letting Hayley get in to you too much, letting her affect you so much. I know youre just trying to be a really good friend to her, but it seems like she’s not being a good friend to you. Youre pushing yourself to a person that doesnt even cherish nor give importance to all the effort you put in to save the friendship. you said it yourself, that u have done everything and that youre starting to feel that she’s using you. You’re already aware that Hayley is drifting away from your friendship. I know it’s hard to lose a friend but we just have to accept the fact that friends come and go, and all that can be left behind are the memories you shared with them. It’s rare to find a friend that sticks to the end, but dont worry, you’ll meet that person. Anyways, you need to move on. Coz as i see it hayley has already moved on.and all she does it make you feel bad and stressed. and make you look like you did something wrong. it’s not a healthy relationship. i believe that any relationship that makes you feel bad about yourself…is an unhealthy relationship that we need to get rid of. its your choice:)
Hi, so here’s the story. i live in las Vegas but im moving to Hawaii in 2 months. i have known my best friend sense 2nd grade and im in love with him. there are several problems with this revelation of mine. im a bit of a pessimist and am afraid if i tell him he wont wanna be friends anymore or it wont work out and we’ll end up hating each other. second were both military brats(meaning our parents are in the military) so the base were at and the base we met at are the only bases we’ve ever been stationed at together, all the other times we had to keep in touch by phone or email and, like i said, im moving very soon.third,his parents hate me and think im a bad influence while my parents think the same about him. fourth, i am kind of mad at myself for liking him because im a major tom boy and have always prided myself on being the only girl in a group of boys and i don’t want our other friends to feel weird. he does make me feel like no one else ever has though,i know its not the normal love you have for a close friend. every touch, laugh, smile, i mean just hearing his name makes me smile. he’s my everything and no matter what kind of relationship we have i want him in my life. im stuck between a rock and a hard place here and i have no idea what to do. after high school he’s going to college for visual art and im going on tour as a musician so we’ll still be far away from each other.also hes from California and and im from Massachusetts and were both stubborn and have a lot of hometown pride. Ive obviously given this a lot of thought,maybe to much, and i can see myself with him forever but im afraid to take the chance. his friendship is to important to gamble away like that.
thanks for any help you can give
You said it yourself that its hard for you to have a kind of long distance relationship. Try to feel him though, try sensing if he gives out clues and little hints of him liking you back. Coz if he does show it, you guys may have a chance in the future, just saying. No matter how little the hope is there, at least u took a chance and you wont be bothered in the future of the thoughts of “what ifs…”
Lilly (firstname.lastname@example.org) submitted:
Hi Anne(: Okay so i wanted to share with you my story and see what you think i should do? well, its actually kind of complicated but here goes.
So all through freshman year I was single, because that is the type of girl I am, I rarely have boyfriends, but when i do its because they actually mean alot. So okay. About halfway through the year, I met this boy. Lets call him brad. Its kinda funny how we met actually because we never knew each other. All year i saw him all around my school but i never talked to him. I just knew him as “Connor’s friend”. Connor is this kid i know.
So yeah one day all the freshman were in the autotorium because all the other grades were doing midterms for shop and they had nothing to do with us. So pretty much, we were all just chilling in the autorium. haha so yeah i remember that day brad and a few of his friends got in trouble and had to go sit in the front. It was funny, i mean i was laughing. So i was looking at him, Brad i mean, well i was kinda staring (: ahaha so out of nowhere he starts looking at me and we’re just staring into eachothers eyes from accross the room. It was werid. So later on that night, i got a friend request from him, and right away, he sent me a message that said, “Hey, Iknow you dont know me but im Brad… I have seen u all around school and i think your one of the most beautiful girls i have seen.” So i was like in shock, i mean nobody has ever come right out and said that, and especially not a stranger. So we started talking, and we never stopped. We were dating probably half the year, and jeez, well we were so in love. Im not gonna lie, ive never loved someone so much. So we Lost it to eachother, and everything was absolutely perfect. We were so happy together. Notice how i said “were”. Our Parents found out and werent too happy about it. They were furious and he was grounded for a long time and after that, after everything was in the open, it wasnt the same. His parents wouldnt let us see eachother at all and we couldnt talk other then inside of school. So we tried to make it work, for a few months after that, but then it started getting weird. He stopped calling me, everytime we’d be walking in the halls he was barely holding my hand at all, and at lunch he wouldnt loook at me and when i tried to make conversation, he would just nod his head, not looking at me, or give me one worded answers. It was absolutley horrible. I knew something was wrong. So the day before my birthday, someone told me that they heard him say he was going to end things, ON MY BIRTHDAY. And i was devastated. idk why but i mean as soon as the bell rang to leave school (it was last period) i ran out and i just started bawling my eyes out. One of those cries where you cant breathe at all and you find yourself gasping for air , it was horrible i mean i had mascara running down my face and i was loud and i couldnt think and the whole school saw me. And people were staring. Later on that night, He called my house looking for me and when i got on he phone he said, ‘Why were you crying today afterschool??’ and i Said ‘i wasnt..?’ (i didnt want him to know i knew) and he said, ‘comeon dont lie, i know you. one of my friends saw you. what happened?’ and im thinking to myself, damnnit he knows i know. So pretty much i told him what happened and he was so upset he said that it was a rumor and he would never do that to me. Everything was fine, the next day, my birthday, it was perfect. The best birthday ive ever had. Brad, well he got me a gift, but screw the gift i mean i loved it but the card is what made the whole gift. This boy, he has a way with words. I was assured everything was legit fine and he loves me and blahblahblah. but yeah so a few days later on tuesday, (my birthday was thursday) he walked up to me and was like, “we need to talk” i was with my friends at the time so yeah i left them and we walked away and then we stopped walking. he said, “this isnt working out anymore.” and i said ‘okay.’ to this day i still have no idea what i was thinking or looking at, but i was kinda just like staring at nothing. i wouldnt look at him. So, after that he said, “we should take some time apart” and i said, ‘alright’ and he said ‘are you gonna be okay’ and im just like yeah. and hes like ‘no youre not.’ like in this slow tone and it was quiet and he was pulling me into him and i just, i wouldnt have it. i puched him away, off of me and i said “IM FINE!!!” and i just left him standing there. i passed my friends, they saw the whole in in shock. All day when soneone asked me if i was okay, i smiled and said, yeahh im finee, why wouldnt i be?? and you know i wasnt, i wasnt okay. But i didnt cry at all, all day at school. but when i got home and i was by myself, thats when it happened. I couldnt stop the tears from raining down on me. It sucked, big time. So it was obviously hard after that to go to school. i would skip sometimes so i wouldn’t have to see him. but so the end of the story is that i would cave in and message him sometimes, see whats up, and i even told him i still lvoed him. but he never said it back. untill one day, he did. and we started talking again, waiting to get back together. But, we never did. Something happened, and he sort of lied to me about it. and i was very upset, so i told him we can just be friends that’s it. and whatever. So then i started dating my best friend, we can call him Cody. But now i think that me and Cody are going to brake up because i got news I’m moving back to Alaska. ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE US! Idk so its all very confusing but the point is like I still really love brad, like alot and i think about him all the time, but i love cody too. Like i said my bestfriend. Kinda like in that Taylor swift video. We finally got together and now, like its ruined. But So i wont be leaving until December but idk what to do about Cody. Should we stay together until i leave or end it now? please help.
To tell you the truth its really complicated that your torn between the both of them. you just need to choose one though because its unfair to keep both. also dont just choose one of them because its a choice that will be more “comfortable” with you. choose the one u love, not the one that u think will make u feel better. sorry for replying so late but if you get a chance to read this id like to know how it all went:)
Hey miss awesome, so I wanna share with you my love story :)
I go to know my love during college trip [well, a day before that :) Nov 03, for the first time]. First time I met her was during the club meeting right before the trip, I just joined the club after my roommates tried to convince me (just for the college trip of course!), in that club meeting there was that other girl that I kinda wanted to nail (honest feelings but not more than that I guess). First day of the trip was mostly spent in the bus, I didn’t sleep a day before so I was really tired and when that happens I get hyper and kinda talkative (Annoying they call it…), we were on our way to San Francisco and I was trying to hook up with the girl I wanted to nail… kinda worked got the attention but didn’t feel attraction, started talking with my love (my girlfriend) at first she thought I was weird, ghetto, annoying and all the bad stuff that u can think about a person and that’s the feeling I had from her and her friends for the whole trip, but still I offered her my help in the class she was taking, she accepted it… we met up and I gave her the papers, she said cool… “Do you want some stickers for your laptop to make it cooler” I asked… She said ” Sure, why not…” and she asked me to fix a couple of stuff in her computer. It started like this; I did those favors because it seemed that outside of the trip thingy and without her friends, she is pretty nice and friendly. We started texting and I told her that I need help with the girl I tried to nail in the trip. She said “ok since I owe u so much…” “You need to change your clothes first… you’re too swag…” we went to the mall with friends, didn’t really work I have a different style…. we continue talking during that week and we became best friends. On that Friday it was Nov. 19th we went on a fun day without alone, she took me to a trip around Little Tokyo and DTLA, It was so fun!!! At first we ate at Little Tokyo then we went shopping around, we continued to L.A Library to check it out, that’s where the magic began, at the children’s section… she leaned on me… I felt comfy and held her hand, from that moment I started holding her hand for no apparent reason, I guess it was because she was disappointed that the guy she wants doesn’t love her back (my roommate) …. Back to the adventure… then she dare me to Ice skate, I was like “Aight I’m down give me some challenge” I tried holding her hand again so she doesn’t fall … One guy asked me “Is that you’re girl?” I was silent for a moment and then replied “ummmmmmm no…. just best friends” At least that’s what I thought at the moment… (This girl is so sweet that I don’t want to break her heart)… to finalize it, the day with her was really awesome.
Later on we talked on Skype and she started opening up more… we got really close… a day later she had something in school, she was bored and she called me, my roommate advised me not to go, I felt like she was falling for me so I waited until she got home, and she made me promise that were not gonna fall for each other… At the moment I wasn’t even thinking about her like this at least not consciously … we hang out even more together whether in school or outside of it, we shared everything with each other and then I started feeling like that girl I wanted to nail wasn’t not for me, she didn’t bother to reply to my messages or coming when I invited her so I said “Fuck it…”. I hangout more with my best friend, she started coming to my place more… I guess at first she wanted to meet my roommate more personally, that was her crush, but later on she was just turned on by my cooking skills… my roommate warn me that she’s falling for me. Well I fell for her too but I kept it as a secret I was embarrassed. However, with the time I figured how AWESOME she is… On December 1st I told her I wanna open up. no more masks, I tried to let her talk about it, I just talked about something else when I opened up and we had an agreement that she has to say something too, so she said that she don’t know what to say, but I saw like there was something wrong with her. Her face turned sad so I told her let’s go somewhere else for a while and have a talk… she told me “IM CONFUSED” I didn’t say anything I knew it was about to come… We walked to our club meeting and I told her “LOOK AT ME… WHAT’S WRONG? IS THERE SOMETHING ANNE?” right before I opened the class door she said “Hold on, there’s something I have to get off my heart, I’M CONFUSED ABOUT YOU…” I said “WHAT IF I TELL YOU IM ALSO CONFUSED?” We both talked about the option of being together but since we were both bruised from past experiences we didn’t jump on it…We didn’t wanna hurt each other since we were still best friends. Later on she came to my place to eat and study, and when I walked her to the bus station I felt butterflies in my tummy, I was like I’ll just say it, I HELD HER HAND AND SAID “I WANT YOU! YOU’RE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON I EVER MET” I looked into her eyes and her face started smiling gradually and 3 seconds later I saw her happiest face ever, I said baby It feels like a dream and hugged her… I FELT I’M THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON EARTH AT THE MOMENT AND I’M FEELING HAPPIER AND HAPPIER AT EVERY MOMENT I’M WITH HER WHETHER ON SKYPE OR REAL LIFE, I FEEL LIKE I KNOW HER FOR SO LONG AND IT’S AMAZING.
I L.O.V.E Y.O.U M.Y A.N.G.E.L MISS AWESOME!!!
I know you guys have been wondering why I havent updated my blog for soooooo long and why i havent even replied to any of your messages. I know said i was going to be gone for only one month, but turns out I had to take a few more months away. Ive been concentrating with my studies and my job. It’s just now that I’ve finally found time to check my tumblr and update it.not to mention, my struggle to remember my email and password for HMA. hahaha
So much stuff happened to me,
Just had my birthday a week ago, got a new haircut and color, im finally back in tumblr for good. MORE INSPIRED THAN EVER. coz…. ill finally spend my Valentines day with someone special:)
from Molly (email@example.com)
Before anyone starts to read and gets confused it a modern day story about lucifer the fallen angel and god. and it doesn not stick to the original story of lucifer, oh and dont be affended if its not your relgion. thanks.
I’d tried staring down God many times before but It felt like my face was about to melt so I turned away from him and began pacing. Feeling my girlfriend Aruru’s anxious stare on me I nodded at her to tell her I was fine and resumed pacing. A whole crowd had gathered to watch me fall, wow how warm and embracing I thought sarcastically.
Disappointing god once was one thing but intentionally ignoring orders was something more. But I’d had enough of him and his precious colony of humans and had given up. I could almost hear god’s thoughts as he wondered deeply in to how to address the situation and I kept on hearing the parting of his lips as he started to speak but then he instantly closed them. Worse of all I knew I wasn’t going to be able to keep my temper and that would cost me place here. In heaven.
“Lucifer…” God sounded appalled and heartbroken at the same time. Unlike the fury I was expecting his voice soft but chastising.
“I don’t understand how you could, you were never the violent type” he closed his eyes and squeezed hard as if trying to deflect the pain that kept on spiralling towards him.
“No dad” I argued, technically he wasn’t made dad he was more of my creator but it was simpler to call him that.” you wouldn’t know if I was the violent type or not because you never gave me the chance to be who I wanted, you just stuck me in this white robe and expected me to follow the heard but now I’m threw with it!” I spoke loud and fiercely so the whole room could hear.
“So you think to find yourself you must kill? That girl didn’t deserve what you did she could of grew up, gone to university have a job settle down with a family but you ruined that for her” he rose his voice as I had rose mine.
“Hardly” I scoffed. “She was dancing at a lap dancing club so she’s not exactly a saint herself.”
“And how did you find yourself to come across such a place” asked god with prodding eyes.
Suddenly I felt embarrassed why had I been there? I have beautiful girlfriend who could give me much more than that and I just threw it carelessly away. My mind was ransacking its self for a feeble answer but came up with nothing than I hated humans and I had terrible prejudices towards them. I hadn’t even meant to kill her I overwhelmed her but I was going to let people gossip and make their own accusations just to make sure I went down in history.
Soon I found myself wondering off in to a self absorbed day dream forgetting all about my dad and I’s slight understanding. He coughed to re catch my attention.
“I really can’t explain myself in an indecent manner so I going to say nothing” I didn’t want to look at Aruru but I owned her that to the least. Her bottom lip was in the same pout that she wore when she was fighting back tears. I was going to miss her but I felt no remorse only anger that stirred with in. Her silky black hair was wavy today; she knew I liked it like that.
“So you can’t justify why you were there other than for your own selfish pleasure?” he asked looking slightly more disgusted than when we had started the conversation.
“No.” I sighed and bowed my head waiting for the drop that I had seen others make many a time before me.
“Then you are no son of mine” he said strongly and with that the clouds beneath my feet parted and I fell.
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- eyk answered: What’s your favorite song to cheer you or anyone up?
ANNE: SLEEP AWAY BY BOB ACRI
- lil-angel-of-hope answered: Why we always love/want everything we could never have?
ANNE: WELL…TAKE TIME TO THINK ABOUT AND APPRECIATE WHAT WE ALREADY HAVE.
- creamsandcakes answered: what will you do about something you can’t have?
ANNE: ILL TRY MY BEST TO GET IT. IF I STILL CANT HAVE IT…ATLEAST I TRIED.
- jeniusphere answered: favorite book?
anne: all of sarah dessen’s books. all!
- annacethesia answered: Ate kong pretty! Hindi mo na ako pinapansin :((
anne: inbox mo.may sinend ako.
- blancahz29 answered: I don’t have any questions but It’d be nice if you tell me anything to make me feel better because I’m feeling pretty sad right now :(
anne: check your inbox. dont worry…whatever youre going through right now…it’ll pass. just remember that you have a lot of people backing you up…your friends…and your family. you’re not alone.
- twinnytime answered: have you ever noticed that a peach looks like an elephants butt? saggy and soft-sih? i wonder if it feels the same eating them…
anne: i guess you have a point…*imagining
- pies-and-lies answered: i asked you an anon question about an hour ago in the stories section of your blog, please respond? “
anne: ill reply tom? if it’s okay. my mind is puzzled tight now. i dont want to give you a crappy reply. teehee:)) ill get to your message.
- poulet-rose answered: What do you do when everything is unimpressive?
anne: …everything? ask myself “what’s wrong with me?”
- iamoneof6billion answered: ANY ?
- dayyummitstara said: Ugh world*
- dayyummitstara answered: If you could do anything in the wold and money was not an issue what would you do and why?
anne: go home.
Anonymous: hi, i'm not sure if i can ask for advice right now, but i need it and i've came to you before.. so i really want to tell my boyfriend i love him, but a few days ago i read a post about making sure i was in love with the person i was with, and not the idea of having someone to be with.. that thought didn't even cross my mind before i read that, but now that i did read that, i'm sort of second guessing myself. but i also think since i never even thought of that, then i really do love him, and not just the idea of being with someone.. i just wanted to get someone else's opinion. :)
so ask yourself.. do you really love this guy? can you imagine losing him… him not being by your side?if you are inlove with the idea of having someone to be with… well could you imagine yourself going out with another guy…not your boyfriend? can you break up with him right now and not feel hurt…not cry about it? are you able to move on in just a few days with another guy? if not it means that you truly love this guy. dont overthink this okay. if you’re happy with your relationship..if he makes you feel love and if you appreciate all that he gives you… then theres nothin to worry about.