onyour-kneess-deactivated201208: I just wanna get it out...
So I'm not gonna tell you his name so I'ma call him Voldemort... :p soo okay me and Voldemort were together for a year and 7 mouths I was inlove with him I was really happy with him he treated me like a princess and everything like that we had little fights but it was no big deal.. I thought he would never hurt me but I was wrong :p awhile back he's was texting his old girlfriend behind my back it's wasn't like "hey how are you" kind of text I would of been find with that but it was more like "hey sexy " flirting crap :/ he didn't know I knew I was just grabbing he's phone to take a pic of myself to put it on his background :p (Voldemort had the iPhone) I was about to take a pic but then he got a text I just saw her name and I read what she said.. It said "last week was so much fun ;)" I hear him come out of the bathroom so I just locked the phone and good thing that bitch texted him again cuz he would of knew I look threw his phone that day we were gonna watch a movie at my house but I couldn't look at him cuz in the back of my head I was thinking he's cheating on me and he's lied to me cuz he said he's going to his cousin party that week... He ask me if I was okay cuz I wasn't talking then I said I wasn't feeling that good so he's can leave.. Right before he left he said I love you jazmine and tried to kiss me but I back away from him then he said oh yeah your sick and just walked away... After he left I called my best friend daisy so I can talk about it she said you should ask why is talking to his ex and hanging out with her and all of the stuff so I can dump him. I didn't want to believe what I have read I was scared cuz I was inlove with him and I didn't want to believe he was doing this to me.. A couple days later I caught him again but this time he knew and he told me everything he was cheating on me and that they hooked up on and off again two mouths after we got together.. I just yelled at him and told him to get out of my face I just walked away and he just pulled me back and he put me in his arms and said I'm so sorry Jazmine I'm such a dumbass for doing that I hurt the girl I truly loved I just push him off and ran home crying I just didn't know what to do.. Two day after that he texed me to meet up with him at the park at the spot where always hang out just the two of us so I did when I got there I saw a whole bunch of roses he came out and said can you take me back plz I made the biggest mistake I ever made in my life then he pulled out this note and heart neckless he put the neckless on me.. In the neckless it said "I'm yours 4ever" and the note said how sorry he was that he'll never do it again blah blah.. Voldemort said once again take me back plz and my dumbass did cuz I believe in 2nd chances cuz my mom gave my dad a 2nd one so I believed in it.. Yep me and Voldemort got back together he "never" talked to that bitch again I was happy yay :p Everything was fine no fight or anything but a week before we broke up for good there was this party we both got invited to we went together and he was drinking and he was trying to get me drunk he did it I was drunk enough so he can get in my pants so yeah we had sex I lost it to that fag but the next day I didn't care cuz I loved him and you should do it with the one you loved.. So the day we broke up I got this message from he's ex telling me that he never loved me he just wanted to get it in that he never broke up with her we when started dating that I was wasting my time with him cuz he never wanted me I just stated crying hopping it wasn't true the 1st thing I did I called both of my best friends Nicole and Daisy I told them everything she told they came over and trying make me stop crying I kept calling myself stupid of taking him back.. I called him and told him what the message said and he just hung up on me so I called him back but he didn't pick up the phone so I started crying more and more I didn't stop cuz then I knew it was true i never talked to him again he blocked me on Facebook he never texted me back never did I see him again I was so broken he can't even tell me himself this bitch had to I was so fucking inlove with him I lost my virginity to him my heart was broken so bad I cried for mouths I barely ate at all I just stayed in my room I started cutting myself... Daisy and Nicole help me so much they made me stop cutting myself.. My mom and dad got a divorced made it more worst my mom told me were moving to Vegas I was sad that I was leaving Daisy and Nicole but I said to myself that this is good for me that I should move on with my life and start fresh.. I still have at heart neckless I just don't know what to do with it.. What should I do with it ? (this happend two years ago when i was 15)
Oh now I found the new guy in Vegas hopefully he doesn't hurt me but we're not official :p
about the necklace. throw it out…it doesnt mean anything anymore and it only reminds you of everything that had happened with that guy. if you want to fully move on and cut out everything that’s connected with this guy…well throwing the necklace is one way.
I just feel so overwhelmed about your story…coz theres a lot of bad things that had happened. Im glad that you’re slowly coping up and moving on and I also think that moving out to a new city will help you start a new life.
dont hate yourself for falling for this guy, we’re human, we make mistakes and sometimes we choose the wrong decisions. but what’s good about this is that we learn a little bit more about life. It makes us a little callous. We have our ups and downs in life for a reason…so that we can learn and improve.
Dont rush it with this guy and know him better. Use your past experiences as a guide when you make your decisions in the present.
thanks for sharing!!!
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